when you hugged me

I broke when you hugged me

I never precisely knew how much I needed a hug

until you gave me one

I never knew how long I had longed for 

someone

to tell me "I'm so proud of you"

to rub my back

to hold me in their arms and stay that way for a long time.

Opening up to you wasn't exactly what I had planned for

but I never thought I'd feel relieved to have done it

I felt like something that had weighed my shoulders

were slowly being removed

like I got it all off of my chest.

I was in your arms when my eyes were bawling

as happy tears were flowing 

You were staring and listening

so attentively, so quietly

and while that happened I still tried to hold

a few things back.

But I couldn't help it anymore

I broke when you hugged me.

-starshine, 23rd of January 2021

SURPRISE~!!!

I posted one of my poems! For the 1st time! Yay! Not gonna lie, I was hesitant about this one, but YOLO, am I right? Haha. Also, I should've posted this 2 days ago, since it was National Hug Day. I didn't even know that day existed until I saw my mutuals talking about it on Twitter.

Let me just analyze this poem a bit. Or maybe not analyze just explain a few things. This poem is entirely not related to me, not something I experienced. I literally wrote this based on a fake scenario I created in my head a couple days ago. Most of my poems are actually based on the fake scenarios I create in my head, not all, but most of them BECAUSE, honestly if I were to talk about me or my life events in my poems, I'm sure they'll be boring because my life, is indeed, boring. 

Nah, I'm just jokingggg. My life is fine OK. 

Anyway, I'll be back with more stuff!!! I hope whoever reads this enjoys my poem and I'll talk to u later! Au revoir.