confidence looks so good on u.

So I’ve mentioned somewhere in my ‘about me’ space that I struggle with self-esteem problems, right? Well, I figured why not talk about it more? I believe EVERYONE struggles with the same problem. Everyone gets insecure or loses confidence at times and I also believe that it’s all due to comparison. We tend to compare ourselves to others which leads to losing confidence and insecurities. Well, at least, that’s what I personally face. I ALWAYS, ALWAYS, compare myself with people. Every hour of the day. OK, that’s just an exaggeration. But, yes. I compare myself a lot with people. Mainly about my physical features. Especially my weight and stuff. Or my skin? Typical things. But to be honest, I don’t even look that bad. No, really, I don’t look bad at all.

I just wish that I could see myself the way my family, and my friends do. I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to do that. To see how enough I am. I don’t know, like, why I always try to find something in me that I can hate on. I don’t know why I hardly believe my mom when she tells me I’m enough and I’m not as bad as I think I am. Sometimes when I hear people say that to me, I always think they’re just trying to make me feel better or something like that. Like I always TRY anything I can to deny good things about myself. And it’s bad. Really bad.

But sometimes, when I’m confident with myself, and how I look, I can get very confident. Although it rarely happens but when it does, I get so happy and I forget about my insecurities.

Despite that, you know what?

I think that, it’s okay to feel insecure or not confident about urself at times, rather than just, pretending to not feel so. For me, to overcome the feeling is by doing anything u can to lift up at least a little bit of confidence in urself. For example, wear clothes that u feel comfortable in, that makes u feel HAPPY, CONFIDENT.  For me, I like wearing oversized clothes, clothes that are not so revealing. And u know what, maybe it IS because I don’t feel confident about my body that I wear oversized clothes but they make me feel much more comfortable at least. If u like wearing fitting clothes, then go for it. Wear whatever makes u comfortable as long as ur religion allows u to.

But remember this, no matter what u do, no matter how hard u try, u will never be the BEST (sounds bad but hear me out). There is always someone out there who will be better than u, and that’s okay. U should be proud of urself, and confident, no matter what. Sure, u can feel insecure at times BUT for how long are u gonna be that way? At some point u have to rise up, amiright? Hey, it’s okay!!!! Take it easy on urself!!!! U got this. We got this :D

That’s all I’ve got for now ^^, I’ll be back soon (tomorrow, probably). Au revoir.